crampy and sleepy

So I'm 7dpo and I've been oh so sleepy since I woke up and very crampy. These cramps aren't the OMG, I'm in so much pain, it hurts, cramps. These are more like the, "these are so annoying", cramps. I hope that these are positive signs. I'm currently 7dpo, I know that implantation will happen anywhere from 7-10dpo. As always, I know time will tell. Time will always tell. I just hope that this time, time will tell us good news.

how is it decided

So last night my husband, some friends and I went to the rodeo to see Mr. Tim McGraw. As we're walking up to Reliant Stadium for the show, we're almost run over by these two idiots, both pushing stroller, with babies in them. What the hell?! I was not okay with that. How is it that these two idiots have babies and clearly don't know what the hell they're doing. Meanwhile, those of us who are at a good place in life are having a dickens of a time getting pregnant. How is that right? How is that fair? How is it decided who get's to get pregnant and who has to keep trying and trying and trying and trying? How? I would love to know this.

It's not that I'm bitter, because I'm not. I would just like to know, which I know isn't possible since I'm on God's time not my own. I am aware of that, I just need reminders from time to time. It is frustrating to want something so badly and not getting it. Telling my husband monht after month that "oh yea, my period just came, we're not pregnant.", is very hard. This whole process is very hard and draining. Draining mentally, emotionally and physically. We're not giving it up though. God will, our time to be pregnant and become parents will come soon enough. I just needed to vent.
Thanks for listening...is anyone listening?